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When I was a child, I used to think that we are very poor. I always hear my mother say that we should be thrifty because we don't have money. She used to buy me the cheapest notebook, intermediate pad and school supplies and stuff like that, which she bought in the bookstore she works at that time. I didn't experience to have disney character shoes, notebooks, stuff toys, pencil case which my classmates have. Its not that I'm envious of those material things, but I manage to understand that we can't afford those. And so I believe that life is hard at an early age. We seldom go out to grocer for food, and if we did, a one thousand budget is all we have. We didn't lavish ourselves for an abundant meals, but we indulge ourselves watching cinemas, eating budget meals, strolling and window shopping. Which I thought was everything we could do and afford.

But as I grow older and understand what life is all about. I was kinda deceived. What I have perceived as a child seems to be false when I grow up. Well living is still hard, esp. when everything you see keeps rising. But its not as hard as I thought. Or maybe my lifestyle is more comfortable than my mother's or what we used to have? I don't know how she spends money thinking that my father is working abroad and she receives remittance (though its not that much). We don't have rent to pay, no tuition fees, and just minimum consumption of electricity and water bills. But all that seems to be very hard for us. I just wonder why?

And now that I'm working and at the right age. Getting hold of my own money and budgeting (oh well, have I learned to budget) haha. All I enjoy recently is how to spend. But anyways, I love spending money. It feels great. haha. Money haven't eaten my pride and principles. I won't allow myself be overpowered by it. I learn how to enjoy what I have and not keep it like everyone does. Cuz its lonely if you keep all your money and live so thrifty at all times. When you instantly die unexpectedly you'll not be able to make use of it. You can't use your savings. You didn't enjoy your lilfe. You didn't know what life is all about. Sometimes people forget to enjoy. They completely forget the reason why they work. They need to spend a great time also. Yes, I''l be saving some too for the future but let us not forget to LIVE our LIFE. That's the most important thing.

But now living my own life seems not as hard as what I have learned through her. Living life is hard if you think it is. But on the positive attitude I think its not. My mother is a pessimist. And I'm an optimist. That's why we always clash on different point of views. Everything seems to be complicated and harder for her. When I always think on the brighter side of all things. I think living in the right attitude is better than dwelling on the pain and difficulties that you are experiencing. Saying always "Wala akong pera." seems to become reality if you think about it. and being problematic always and not thinking of the solution or ways how to solve everything would make you miserable. Lets just LIVE LOVE AND LAUGH. haha.